Hey everyone, I’m back from the dead! Actually, that is almost a literal statement. After taking a few months off, I share with you my very personal story of what happened to me this summer, and why I had to get some help. I hope my sharing can help you on whatever journey you may be on.
I am back and so excited to rock a new season, with lots of new episodes and all that I have learned. Comment below, I’d love to hear from you!
My goodness this was helpful. Thank you for sharing. I can’t wait to hear more.
Thanks for sharing so openly about breaking down, and going to the Meadows. I’m aware of childhood pain but not how to get to recovering daily.
I can’t wait to hear more. Thank you ! Good bless you, beautiful soul!
Lindsey – thank you so much for your courage in sharing your story. It takes so much to be able to admit to our pain and our ‘mask’ …… bless you!! Bequi
Thank you Bequi! Bless you back!
Thank you so much for sharing this.
Lindsey – Thank you for this. So many things you said in the episode resonated. Survival panic. Intellectual and spiritual abuse. Cognitive distortions. Adapted adult child. Wow. ALL OF THIS.
Also, I there NEEDS to be a safe place to discuss the thoughts of “I shouldn’t be here” – WITHOUT the fear that you’re going to be involuntarily hospitalized. Thanks for at least cracking that door a tiny bit.
I will look forward to future episodes from you.
Oh my gosh do you raise a great point. I’m going to think about that and discuss that more!
Lindsey – I am glad you’re back! Thanks for posting this heart wrenching yet enlightening podcast. Can’t wait to hear your future ones. Been thinking about you during this hellish year and was thinking you going through IT since you did disappear. So glad you made it out! Thank you for being human, and letting us know that you are human. So much to learn from you. WELCOME BACK!!!
Heidi! So good to hear from you! Thank you so much for your support! xoxo
I haven’t listened to your podcast yet, but I just finished reading your email bout it and I just can’t stop crying.
I totally get that mask that you wear to the outside, and even to ones that we love the most dearly.
The quote of affirmations you mentioned; “As we became adults, we often found it easy to continue lying about ourselves. Maybe we embellished to make ourselves look better because we weren’t even sure what the truth was anymore. Or maybe we did so because we “knew” that people wouldn’t except [sic] us for who we really are. But the more lies we told, the harder it became to keep track, which made us terrified of slipping up”
You said that this was you to a T. This is my STBXH to a T. Part of my own healing as we are moving to finalizing our divorce has been accepting him for who he is, not who he portrayed or who I thought he was or wanted him to be.
Thanks Michele – I never considered that quote to apply to narcissists or our exes, but you’re right, it’s spot on! I do think that a narcissist and his/her partner are liars together, but they lie to themselves in different ways. We lie to ourselves thinking their behavior is acceptable and we look the other way. We also fantasize all of their good parts and embellish them. They lie to themselves equally so, but they think they are the hero and look down on everyone else. I’ll talk more about that!
Thanks for sharing. At one point I cried because of a painful past with my mother. She just passed in June and I struggle with just wanting her to have been normal for one day:( I wish I had the money to go into treatment like you. I just want and need affirmation that what I experienced was a form of my mother’s addiction and mental illness. I make poor choices in men even though I read so many books and know what’s right. I slip back to what I’ve known and feel that’s all I deserve.
I’m so sorry for your recent loss, I completely understand your pain! Try getting the big red book of ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics). I’ll be referencing a lot of that in upcoming episodes. It basically outlines the story of my life!